Surrounded by demons and angels

the traumas I have kept bottled in over what happened in that apartment….. and how I have been denied and denieyd and independence from clingy parents or someone stealing my money and business… I’m tired. I’m tired of slamming my head against the wall and getting nowhere. Enough is enough. And I ain’t gon play this game of let’s get married while u bang yur x. I’m not fallin for it again. I’m just not. Would rather die alone than risk anymore pain. It’s already excruciating and I’m already going to d** from it soon. Tired of being hated. Judged. Used. Manipulated. I’m out, yo. I’m out. Best of luck to all y’all. I need to focus all my attention on not having to sleep on the streets again in the cold on the concrete. And I gotta figure out how to do this W/o Amanda being able to steal more from me. Fml. I cannot wait For my dnd character to croak… is wat I woulda said if a stranger w/ heart of gold hadn’t helped me. I am so thankful/grateful E.