Cynical about romance& romantic skeptic vibes& fear of abandonment& emotional wounds vibes& feeling left out in the cold vibes& nihilistic v...

The intrusive thoughts flood my mind. My anxiety overwhelms me. It’s hard to put my faith in something I haven’t seen. And I don’t mean a God. I mean romantic love. It’s hard to trust that things will work out in the end. I am brooding and skeptical about romantic love. He let me down and he made me lose my faith in romantic love. Trust issues was the worst gift he ever gave me, but the only gift he gave me. I haven’t been able to let go and to heal properly. It’s like a hole inside my heart that never heals, so I try desperately to protect it. Afraid to let another man in.