It's difficult to stop.
There's something PRIMAL about fire.
I was cured by having the results of fire spelled out, safely.long story short.
I was "Helping " the rarmer next door to burn a dead tree out of his field.
The tree trunk
Burned through the dead heart of the tree making a tifteen foot high blow pipe that was belching out blue flame.
It was my masterpiece, and I never lit an uncontrolled fire, again.