Helena made a cup of her special relaxing tea that she had crafted for use after stressful missions. She found a piece of southern style cornbread, some honey and jam, a bowl of fruit loops and a power bar. She began to eat and pray Lauds. All the while she felt sad. Bjornson entered the refectory and started to make coffee. He noticed Helena at the table looking sad.
“Good morning, Sister. Why the long face?” he asked with a concern in his voice.
“Something that Maerwynn asked me last night. I couldn't answer her. She could see my past you know, from the Stones. I just couldn't forgive myself for what I did. Yet the man I killed in my Rogue NID days forgave me right before he died. Yet I didn't deserve it,” Helena replied.